Sunday, April 29, 2012
Although this is not a religious blog, I am a religious person. On occasion I have a thought and manage to write it down. I feel strongly that spiritual and physical health are linked. I am trying to work on both, all the time. This morning, this is how I felt, " Sometimes, when I'm over tired, frustrated and feel alone in my struggles, I imagine falling backwards into the arms of angels that gently stand me upright to face my challenges with a new found hope & strength." I hope you can all find something to fall back on that will lift you and not push you down.
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
So this is where one would apologize for not writing and say things like life got in the way, blah bla bla.....Not here, not me. I'm about the truth because only the truth shall set you free. Ya, I really just quoted that, lol. I have not been posting because of guilt. I felt like I didn't have the right to keep you all updated on how bad I was screwing up when really I should. We all go up and down on things in our lives and why should I feel the need to sugar coat reality? I shouldn't, so I have decided to make it a personal goal to keep posting on here, the good, the bad and the ugly. Yes, I just quoted that too....lol Anyway, I have had a rough month and I now feel worthy enough to write again, but in the future, I'm posting no matter what! My hubby went out of town on a job and the common excuse is that I was overwhelmed and felt like I just didn't have enough time in the day so fast food and unhealthy things were my only option. Bull! Truth is, I did not manage my time in a way to prepare and plan meals so that when time was an issue I wouldn't have to make stupid choices. I fed myself and my children the wrong things for three weeks! Whatever, it is what it is and if I can learn from this it was not all in vain. I am over feeling horrible and guilty and now I'm on the "beat the crap out of myself at the gym" stage. Meal planning has never been easy for me. I grew up in a single working parent home and so Mac-n-Cheese and Ravioli's were a staple. I saw my Mom for 3 hours in the evenings and on weekends so I didn't learn a whole lot in the kitchen area. Not an excuse for my behavior, mind you, but a reason I need to strive to learn more each day. Until my next post people.