Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Gone too long..........

So this is where one would apologize for not writing and say things like life got in the way, blah bla bla.....Not here, not me.  I'm about the truth because only the truth shall set you free.  Ya, I really just quoted that, lol.  I have not been posting because of guilt.  I felt like I didn't have the right to keep you all updated on how bad I was screwing up when really I should.  We all go up and down on things in our lives and why should I feel the need to sugar coat reality?  I shouldn't, so I have decided to make it a personal goal to keep posting on here, the good, the bad and the ugly.  Yes, I just quoted that too....lol  Anyway, I have had a rough month and I now feel worthy enough to write again, but in the future, I'm posting no matter what!  My hubby went out of town on a job and the common excuse is that I was overwhelmed and felt like I just didn't have enough time in the day so fast food and unhealthy things were my only option. Bull!  Truth is, I did not manage my time in a way to prepare and plan meals so that when time was an issue I wouldn't have to make stupid choices.  I fed myself and my children the wrong things for three weeks!  Whatever, it is what it is and if I can learn from this it was not all in vain.  I am over feeling horrible and guilty and now I'm on the "beat the crap out of myself at the gym" stage.  Meal planning has never been easy for me.  I grew up in a single working parent home and so Mac-n-Cheese and Ravioli's were a staple.  I saw my Mom for 3 hours in the evenings and on weekends so I didn't learn a whole lot in the kitchen area.  Not an excuse for my behavior, mind you, but a reason I need to strive to learn more each day.  Until my next post people.  

1 comment:

  1. Feeling overwhelmed is a huge trigger for me as well. Hang in there. Keep posting!